Really Squirrel should be doing the blog tonight since she had the most time with the duo today, but that is exactly why she isn't. Squirrel is sleeping.
We both seem to be taking this journey differently. I'm a much more pragmatic and logic driven thinker and Squirrel a bit more feeling. So, I'm a bit tired, but overall okay with the whole process and the past 5 weeks. I see what good we are doing every day and I take it as such. Mind you, I'm speaking for her right now, but she is a bit more worried about what happens next. The what if we are completely in love with the duo and their biomom pulls herself up and regains the ability to care for them. That prevents Squirrel from just loving them today without barriers.
Maybe I'll think differently next week when daycare is closed and I am home with them all day every day.
That is one of the dangers of foster care though. You are supposed to love them and they are potentially going home.
Biomom did her second visit this week. Two out of three is the best week yet. For the first time she brought the kids gifts. Each of them received a coloring book. It is a start. I see it as progress. Squirrel sees it as frustration. I see her point. How does a coloring book fix the fact that you had your kids living in such conditions that they were taken from you? It doesn't, but it is sure better than showing up empty handed.
Tomorrow will mark 5 weeks with the duo. A whirlwind it has been
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